Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Whaaaaat?

That's right, she is four months already. Newborn no more. Well, it depends on your definition of newborn, I guess, but Rob and I consider month four the end of the newborn days. We love month four! I mean, of course she has been our little angel since day one. But, I'm not gonna lie, it has not been easy. Month four is magic. The baby books tell you it is coming...for example, if your baby has colic, the books assure you that the crying will subside by the end of the third month. Oh, I remember that so clearly with my Bennett Bear; clinging for dear life until month four. The first three months of his life were the longest three months of mine. Sorry, Bear, but it's true. And then on March 1, 2007, just as the books predicted, the clouds lifted, the crying ceased, and his marvelous personality broke through. Magic. Well, this time around was easier in many ways (harder in others, of course, this is life we are talking about here). For starters, Ella girl was not colicky. Only a mother of a colicky baby can appreciate that distinction (o.k, fathers too, it just doesn't sound as dramatic). Second, time flew. Hence, the title of this post. I mean, I seriously cannot believe that she is four months old. In part because at least half of my brain cells are gone from pregnancy and lack of sleep. I actually don't even know what I'm talking about right now...

The other apparent difference with this little one is my mind set. Not in the-"you will be so much more relaxed this time around"-way that everyone said it would be. No, for me it has been more like...no matter how difficult the hour/day (or should I say night) is, I just know that I need to appreciate the time with her. I look at Bennett, and he is big...he speaks in sentences, we can reason with him. And that happened in a heartbeat. Everyone says it, but the cliche is so true: time flies. It just does. So, through all the challenges of her newborn-ness was this internal acknowledgment that she wouldn't be my tiny baby very long. And here we are at 4 months, the most challenging (for me, anyway) part of her very young age is already behind us. It is bitter sweet. But mostly sweet ;)

Happy birthday, baby grill (as Bennett pronounces it)!!

4 comments:

Tara said...

Congrats, glad you made it through the tough part (hee hee, we both know it just gets more "interesting" from here)! She's such a beautiful baby, I can't wait to see how her special personality develops as she grows. It's cliche for a reason, you blink and they're grown up, so keep trying to appreciate the moments!

Mom Ryan said...

Yes, you are smart to appreciate how precious they are, and quickly the time passes. Look at Ally, turning 10!! and Hannah is 13...& we remember her birth just the other day??! Smooches from Grammy and Bumpa!

Mom Ryan said...

I love your new photos....very cool! RM looks quite dashing! Cute people!!

Colleen said...

I've been fairly absent from blog world, but I just saw this post. Love your blog's new look! So looking forward to that sweet girl before she's, you know, a teenager. :) Happy 4-month mark to all of you!